Lizzie

new things

2009-07-19T10:33:00.000-07:00

Last week Matt came to Beijing and we hanged out for several times. I learned a lot of new words from him like Passive-aggressive, Asian flush, building complex... One amazing thing is that when Matt went back to America, Aeron sat with him and praised that my english is very good, wahaha~ Although all the past year i didn't practice english so much, i still feel my improvement:) Or Matt just slowed down his speaking rate on purpose, that also made differences.

Just got the mail that the paper submitted to HK is accepted in advance, quite a news.
Cheer up Lizzie, fighting!

what kind of love?

2009-04-01T06:41:00.000-07:00

长时间没有跟踪美剧了，那个定理证明着实要把我逼疯了~~~
即使如此，每天还会上上开心收收菜，还有一个routine的事情就是每天看两集sex and the city，跟着看索性不跟了，直接打开最后一集，欣赏凯莉的一段精彩对白：
well, maybe it's time to clear who i am, i am someone who is looking for love,
real love,
rediculous,
inconvinient,
consuming,
can't live without each other love.

久久，觉得那一段话仍然在我耳边，well, what kind of love i am looking for? What kind of person i am~~~

One night to be confused.

2009-03-23T04:12:00.001-07:00

Bones Episode 17 Season 4 Ending song.

One night to be confused
One night to speed up truth
We had a promise made
Four hands and then away

Both under influence
We had divine scent
To know what to say
Mind is a razor blade

To call for hands of above
To lean on
Wouldn't be good enough
For me, no

One night of magic rush
The start a simple touch
One night to push and scream
And then relief

Ten days of perfect tunes
The colors red and blue
We had a promise made
We were in love

To call for hands of above
To lean on
Wouldn't be good enough
For me, no

To call for hands of above
To lean on
Wouldn't be good enough

And you, you knew the hands of the devil
And you, kept us awake with wolf teeth
Sharing different heartbeats
In one night

To call for hands of above
To lean on
Wouldn't be good enough
For me, no

To call for hands of above
To lean on
Wouldn't be good enough
For me, no

be satisfied^_^

2009-03-20T23:10:00.000-07:00

如今三个愿望都得到满足：
留所的事情差不多了；
黄山会议论文被录取了；
杭州西溪也去了……

该是心满意足，梦里偷着乐了：）
迷上开心网，嚷嚷着也就三分钟热度吧，很快就腻歪了吧，可惜现在每天不偷偷菜就觉得落掉什么似得。

下一阶段的目标：毕业论文、减肥

闭关吧~~

Trip to Hang Zhou

2009-03-19T19:32:00.000-07:00

又一次去杭州，在烟花三月。怀着满满的期盼的心开始行程，在行程中细细品味，一点点释放，于是带着空空的心结束旅程。也许这就是至今仍然喜欢外出，钟意旅行的原因。只因自己太不懂得如何放松自己，如何表达，如何解脱。这种压抑的情绪，只有在浑然天成的自然面前，才可以得到平静的、细如流水般的释放。
当然，此次旅行的主要目的，美其名曰并不是如此的。
不多废话，应清同志的强烈要求，晒图啦~~~

浴鹄湾，杭州西湖边的一个新景，当外地游客在西湖边挤热闹时，这里却是独辟蹊径，很是典雅。招来诸多新婚佳人在此外景拍婚照，可见魅力不凡。

西溪湿地公园，受某某电影做宣传，此处成了杭州的另一个热闹景点。好在Caspar同志英明果断，选在周一才去，人少船多景空，别有一番情致。西溪且留下，仍旧是一个愿望~~~

标题：非诚勿扰拍摄船（可惜急着吃饭，不然可以把诸多游客凑热闹在此排队留影的景色拍上，很是有趣~~~）

标题：顾影~~~

标题：展翅~~~

标题：梅花山庄

标题：芦苇荡

标题：长廊

标题：小桥流水

标题：沿岸

finally...

2009-03-11T22:12:00.000-07:00

Finally, finished all the application work of the national fund;

Finally, feel my heart is warm and no longer cold;

Finally, begin the new travel after a long time hibernation;

Finally, life becomes so unsure to me but not like to stop my pace;

Finally, all the pains disappear and happiness around me.

That's my belief from now on...

begin to write dissertation!

2009-03-09T02:35:00.000-07:00

rt.
wish i can finish the majoy part in this week.

take a break

2009-02-26T20:55:00.000-08:00

After days working on the fund application materia, i am almost driven crazy, fortunately i am not used to releasing my nerve by breaking my laptop into pieces...

And it's a chance for me to take a break.

Some of my bad habits just came out last night when i failed to fall asleep, they are maybe a continue of a former post which i was tagged.

26. I am a quick learner in technical knowledge but slow learner in social and communication knowledge.

27. I am always too caring about other people's demand, especially those who are very close to my life. Sometimes this kind of self-sacrified merit may not be a good choice for a longer relationship. Of course, no one should be blamed.

28. I don't have a strong determination when make a decision. I am always changing my oringal thought when facing the reality situation. This charateristic may be needed in many unstable situations, but i hate the manner that i always negative myself may cause deeply self doubt.

A test for how nerdy you are~

2009-02-25T06:28:00.000-08:00

http://www.nerdtests.com/ft_nq.php

My test answer is :

3% scored higher (more nerdy),
0% scored the same,
and 97% scored lower (less nerdy).

Your nerdiness is:

All hail the monstrous nerd. You are by far the SUPREME NERD GOD!!!

Sometimes people really don't understand herself~~interesting.

In youth we learn, in age we understand.

2009-02-22T22:51:00.000-08:00

For those who believe, no proof is necessary;
For those who don't believe, no proof is possible.

By Stuart Chase.

IN YOUTH WE LEARN, IN AGE WE UNDERSTAND.

Quoted from the TV series: Criminal Minds.

something to share

2009-02-21T06:59:00.002-08:00

On Way---By Father Alfred D'Souza

For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin , real life. But, there was always some obsacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinnished business, time still to be served or a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So treasure every moment that you have and treasure it more because you share it with someone special, someone special enough to spend your time with. Make the most of your time. Don’t waste too much of your time studying, working, or stressing about something that seems important. Do what you want to do to be happy but also do what you can to make the people you care about happy. Remember that time waits for no one. So stop waiting until you take your last test, until you finish school, until you go back to school, until you have the perfect body, the perfect car, or whatever other perfect thing you desire.

Stop waiting until the weekend, when you can party or let loose, until summer, spring, fall or winter, until you find the right person and get married, until you die, until your born again, to decide that there is no better time than right now to be happy.

Happiness is a journey, not a destination.
So work like you don't need the money,
Love like you have never been hurt,
and dance like no one’s watching.

Happiness Is A Journey .

快乐是一段旅程，而不是终点.
去爱吧，如同从来没有受过伤害一样
跳舞吧，像没有人欣赏一样
唱歌吧，像没有任何人聆听一样
干活吧，像不需要钱一样
生活吧，像今天是末日一样 [艾佛烈德德索萨]如是说

A Poem

2009-02-21T06:59:00.001-08:00

job hunting II

2009-02-20T18:16:00.000-08:00

Yersterday was really a tough day for me, but i was lucky to get a job finally.
Now i am confirmed that i am hired by the Institute as an asistant researcher.

Good news, still hope i will be more rational when make big decisions, and wish i
will not let my tears out next time, too childlish!

job hunting I

2009-02-19T18:40:00.000-08:00

Since the job thing turns out to be the most important and the most annoying thing these days, my mood is changing all the time. The day before yesterday, there was a discussion meeting in institute and then came the good news. Not sooner have i been in happy mood, the information came that there is also a discussion meeting in the academy this afternoon, and it maybe not so optimistic for me to get the job.
A tough day today, just waiting.

random thinkings

2009-02-17T20:57:00.000-08:00

Always wondering why my major finally turns out to be Decision Making Support, since i oftenly made bad decisions, although everytime i promised that i won't make the same wrong thing next time~

I find a theory named financial behavior, which explains that why people always behavior irrationally rather than rationally when making options. In my opinion, this theory maybe want to show that people's heart works faster than brain, so always when a person is going to make a decision, always in the way following his/her heart directly. So he/she will not hold on to ask his/her brain to make so many calculations.~~~The optimization theory seems to be useless here.

I don't like the feeling to intorduce my major without enough confidence, and also i want to get through this puzzles. Using heart or using brain, it is totoally a complex problem, and my question is how the two manners: buttom-up and up-down, can merge?

NCIS

2009-02-16T04:23:00.000-08:00

Recently i spent some of my leisure time in watching a TV series named NCIS (Naval Criminal Investigative Service).
Although i like all the major roles in this TV: Ziva, a sexy and nice lady; Tony, a smart thinking man; Mcgee, a genius; and Abby, suppergenius... But which attracts me a lot is the following discription for their boss, Gibbs:

This agent is more street-smart than book-smart.
He possesses great inner strength.
He's very focused.
He has a strong sense of justice that drives him.
He is unrelenting to the point of obsession.
He is an exceptional investigator.
He is a man who acts on his gut instinct.
Who relies on his ability to judge people,
and he's rarely wrong.
As a result,
he's a man who never suffers from self-doubt.

quoted from NCIS S06E07.

Ha, being tagged!

2009-02-12T23:56:00.000-08:00

Never being tagged before, until i received the message in my facebook:

Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

Although facing with the "25" things, my first response is being scared and impatient, still i want to finish it the first time, and maybe the last time, will see.

ok, take your time, Liz:)

1. I always think that i should be born a boy, my mom said that before i came to this world, all of people guessed that i would be a boy, an uncle also betted a bicycle for it. I asked my mom, where is the bike, she smiled:” the bet was just for fun", otherwise, i as a little baby had the ability of bringing a bike to my parents, that is cute.
2. When i was four, my parents sent me to a kindergarten nearby my grandma’s home. Because i was the youngest kid in class, teacher didn't take much care for me. I spent most of time in sleeping and sleeping until I could go home. Sometimes my uncle came back from work and didn’t find me, he went to school, and found I was still sleeping alone in the classroom. Once the classroom is locked by other kids (they locked the door and went home without waking me up). Finally my uncle went to the teacher’s home and got the key to open the door, and waked me up…
3. I was supposed to be low IQ when I was in the first grade. Because I didn’t pass the math exam, less than 60! My parents were too busy to worry about my study at that time, so except being mocked by my teacher for a while, I felt little stress. Wonder how I make math as my major now!
4. My most favorite animal is dog, not only because I was bored in a Dog year. My family raised a dog when I was five, and the dog died when I was seven. When the dog was dying, my father walked it out of our home, now I still remember the picture: at dusk, my father walked the dog and I followed after. My parents decided not to raise any pet after that time, but now there are two dogs and one cat in their house.
5. I believed that I saw ghost when I was six year's old. People may not believe that, but I truly saw something which could not be explained.
6. My best friend always introduce me good and delicious food, maybe that is the key reason why we became friends:) forget it, the point is that it is utmost hard to ask me to give up delicious food, and sharing delicious food with friends is a great happiness.
7. I never thought that what kind of people I want to become, a scientist, a housewife, a business lady? Have no idea… I just like doing the current things better and seldomly design the future.
8. Before my 25, I believed that people may fall in love at the first sight, now I think that it must take a long time to love a person.
9. I want to travel every city in China, and abroad next.
10. I began to write diary from my high school, but quitted after I fell in love, and restart doing it after breakup. It is really very boring, and now I am considering stop bla~bla~bla~ in my Blog.
11. I learned to play bridge two years before, but remember nothing about it now. Also I learned Germany, and only can remember several words now. I don’t like doing things without passion or motivation, otherwise I will lack of patient.
12. I’ve never smoked and don’t intent to in future. As to drink, I just got drunk once and lost myself at that time. After that time, i deny myslef to feel so bad.
13. During the time I broke up with my bf, maybe in one and a half year, I almost cried every day and didn’t have any passion to do my work. My mentor never criticized my lazy at that time and always encouraged me to do my research. I am very appreciate the care from him and will return if I have the ability.
14. I like little kid, they are very cute and I think I will definitely spoil my child in future if I had one:)
15. I am not good at persuading people doing something, I don’t like debating.
16. I’ve planned to marry a fish man just because I like eating fish when I was 20.
17. I think I am an introversive girl, but all my friends don’t think so.
18. I am not a big fun of fashion, for me shopping is just a way to get off my bad mood.
19. When I was in Middle school, I got two ear holes my first time but I only wear the ear rings for no more than two weeks.
20. I love watching American TV series, from the very beginning Friends, then Prison Break, DH…Detective type is my most favorite.
21. Sometimes when I first met a person, I dislike him or her, and he or she can know that. My mom always asks me to change this bad habit, I am trying.
22. I believe that most communication or interaction between people are win-win game, if the balance is broke, always turns out to be ‘win less’-lose type. So belief between people can create great fortune.
23. I still remember one scene from TV FRIENDS, Chandler posed a puzzle to Joey: one hand stands for sexy lady, the other is tasty food, which one you will choose? Without thinking, Joey said that: Put your hands together!...But the fact is, left is left and right is right.
24. My grandma is my love-most person in my family. She is always nice to her parents in law, her husband, her children, her grandchildren…She never thought of herself even many times she gained unfair treat.
25. My favorite number is 7, for no reason.

Lizzie is going to be lazy:)

2009-02-04T07:35:00.000-08:00

After a cozy holiday rest at home, i came back to BJ at the early morning yesterday.
Being worry about the fund application, i am still not quite used to the busy life here.
A lot of things get sticked in my mind and even when I fell asleep, the bad feeling can not go. So i tried very hard to forget and focus myself on the fund application, no use....what's wrong with you, lizzie?

So it's better to believe that let it go, my blog, my job, my the one, my future.
Just be lazy for a while:)

2009年的许愿

2009-01-13T05:01:00.000-08:00

昨天两个小师妹同一天生日，师门的在我这个大师姐的带领下（哈哈，自我陶醉一下），一整天耍下来，真是很开心。

师妹们过生日许愿，激发我许愿的兴趣来。新的一年，我的愿望：
1. 攒够钱，换个佳能G10的相机；
2. 申请去黄山以及呼和浩特的会议论文可以通过；
3. 留所的事情能够一切顺利，天遂人愿；
4. 拿着新相机，去丽江旅行；
5. 重游上海、杭州，访友。

以上是自我感觉可以有希望实现的，以下是祈愿：

1. 亲人、朋友身体健康；
2. 遇到真命天子，觅得好缘；
3. 希望可以去趟USA，想念Vivi…
4. 厨艺有所长进，虽然现在厨艺基础为零，不过很想有做出满汉全席的本事，野心很大，动机
好小，哈~~~
5. 尝试掌握一个新技能、了解一种新思想。

我就是贪心，许愿就要多一些，最后希望以上愿望十全九美吧!

下一篇，开始回复英语，呵呵……

Keep warm in heart.

2009-01-02T23:24:00.000-08:00

元旦那天6点莫名的醒来，就再也睡不着了。7点收到短信祝福，于是窝在被窝里，开始给通讯录里的朋友们补发Happy 牛 Year的祝福。就这样，发短信收短信到8点多，终于起床了……
去华星看了场叶问，下来就记得一个镜头：甄子丹一甩袍，一伸掌，“咏春，叶问”！好酷啊！！！不过后来太压抑，尤其是跟日本人打斗那几场，看着看着就哭了。
去华宇淘东西，给妈妈买了双鞋子，然后意外地为自己挑了身裙子，哈哈哈哈，又败了几百米~~
晚上回宿舍，很累……打牌到11点，一直输！今年牌场失意，希望过年回家玩麻将，可别把盘缠钱给输光了：）
昨天有些小感冒。去健身，动作做了一半就跟教练“提议”就做到这里吧。。。教练说：这个动作对减腰很有帮助，要坚持啊！我笑：其实腰差不多就行了，不用特别细！教练无语。。。当时就想起崔老师讲的扁鹊三不医，呵呵。
今天早上一起床，脑子里就蹦出一句马季的相声：你醉了吗，我饿了。。。这句话是前年去后海时zz告诉我的。那时候我看着后海的平静的湖面，看得发呆，他从后面拍了拍我，说了这么一句。恍然间看了看表，才发现已经1点多了，我还害他饿着肚子呢。
只是人这一生，能有多少次看着美景发呆呢？当过往的种种镜头像过山车一样在脑海里刷刷滑过，组成人间百态的画篇，结合眼前或美或奇的风景，又怎么不会陶醉？当分不清现实与梦境，试图靠印象来抓住曾经的美好或心情，又怎么不会发呆？只是让大脑短时间脱离一下现实的烦扰，幻想主义式的完美。
心里面是暖暖的，正迎合了这新年的阳光，心情还好，继续工作。

Say goodbye to 2008, say forever.

2008-12-30T06:38:00.001-08:00

It is another end of the year.

In China, the most traditional festival always wait until the winter and the cold weather is going to disappear. So people began to expect that the festival and warm days can come back sooner.

Still, i have a very busy day, and finally survived from paper, job, and some other pressures.

And just in this way to say bye to 2008, it was a very special year for me.

Animals are beautiful people

2008-12-14T05:24:00.000-08:00

An old documentary film named ~Animals are beautiful people~really surprised me during the whole time i was watching it.
The film maker might be the most elegant artist cause there seemed to be no intention to show how lovely and clever the animals are, but they really are!

If you are intrested in this film, you can watch the following two scenes first:

Animals are getting drunk

Hyena being outsmarted

gutter Vs stars

2008-12-04T17:19:00.000-08:00

My mentor gave me one sentence as an encouragement:

We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.

Also as Schopenhauer said: when you are focusing on the detail of one tiny task or temperary end, it is necessary to jump out and see from the whole.(当你整日沉浸在具体的事物或细节上时，跳出来从整体规划的角度来审查，是非常必要的。)

anyway, maybe all of us will always be frogs in the gutter and can never get out, but the stars outside will also be there all the time, which will call for our determination to get out in any time.

about my research.

2008-12-02T00:08:00.000-08:00

Just because something is 'obvious', that doesn't mean it isn't worth discussing more carefully.

Data envelopment analysis is a genuinely useful technique, one which has potential to inform the decision making process in organisations.

In order for a Ph.D. or project to be brought to a successful conclusion it is necessary to be focussed, but being focussed is different from having a narrow mind or a narrow range of experience.…The purpose of education is to keep a culture from being drowned in senseless repetitions, each of which claims to offer a new insight.

Focus myself on DEA literature, hope i can change to a big piece of sponge, can absorb more:)

For Thanksgiving.

2008-11-23T17:39:00.000-08:00

Thanksgiving Day is coming, many thanks and many best wishes are going to be sent out in that day.
Last saturday i went to the Simatai Great Wall. I, together with my colleague, organized 45 students there. Although i had the bravery to organize the "great" journey, when i faced to the 14 towers of Simatai, i almost gave up the idea to reach the top another time. Maybe in my opinion this time my journey was lonely, i don't know why and how i felt lost in the way. When i stand in the Great Wall, each tower was calling for the great memory, the memory is huge not because the beautiful scene, but for the happiness sharing with my friends.
Great Wall, Great remembrance.